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I'VE LOVED CAPTURING MOMENTS SINCE I WAS LITTLE. :-)
















































































JAMES "FINE BOY" McAVOY AS I LIKE TO REFER TO HIM IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE ACTORS. 










THIS SITUATION IS NOT VALID! THIS ATTACK IS NOT VALID! JUST LIKE THE ENEMY IS NOT VALID!





Lana Vawser











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HELLOOME IS HOT AND HAS REQUESTED HER MUM ( ILLUSTRATOR ) DRAW HER A FAN. TUNE  INTO MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL TO SEE HELLOOME MAKE APPEARANCESTORS NOW AND AGAIN.

-KESIENA 




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HEAL THE WORLD, MAKE IT A BETTER PLACE, FOR YOU AND FOR ME AND THE ENTIRE HUMAN RACE.

-MICHEAL JACKSON  


I'VE WANTED TO DO THIS FOR A WHILE, A SPACE IN THE GALLERY TO DOCUMENT MY NEPHEWS ART WORK. HE'S VERY CREATIVE.:-) I CAN'T WAIT TO SHOW HIM AS HE GETS OLDER. LOVE YOU ZEEKY BOY. Xx

-AUNTIE CAKE



RIP CILLA BLACK 1943 - 2015
-KESIENA





HELLO & WELCOME TO THE #1415 EXHIBITION CURATED BY YOURS TRULY.

I MENTIONED TO MY SISTER A FEW DAYS AGO THAT I WANTED TO HAVE AN EXHIBITION AFTER BEING INSPIRED BY ONE I VIEWED THIS PAST WEEKEND. IT FOCUSED LARGELY ON PEOPLE WHO SUFFERED WITH VARIOUS ADDICTIONS. 
IT WAS RAW AND TRUTHFUL.
AND I THOUGHT WHAT BETTER WAY TO HOST IT THAN IN THE BLOG GALLERY.

I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ONE TO EXPRESS MY EMOTIONS THROUGH CREATING, WHETHER IT'S IN THE FORM OF IMAGERY OR VERBAL COMMUNICATIONS.

 I LOVE TO INTERACT WITH MY AUDIENCE AND THROUGH THIS I HOPE TO REACH A PLACE OF SELF HEALING & SERENITY.

FOR ME...TO CREATE, IS TO HEAL.
THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING 

STAY TUNED,

-KESIENA
-----------------------------------------------
IT'S FREE TO VISIT,

SO BE SURE TO KEEP UP TO DATE WITH ME ON FACEBOOK & TWITTER WHERE I WILL ANNOUNCE
THE LAUNCH OF #1415









"AS I WALKED OUT THE DOOR TOWARD THE GATE THAT WOULD LEAD TO MY FREEDOM, I KNEW THAT IF I DIDN'T LEAVE MY BITTERNESS AND HATRED BEHIND, I WOULD STILL BE IN PRISON."

-NELSON MANDELA 

EVER SO OFTEN WE FIND OURSELVES WRAPPED UP IN OUR PAST. WE REFLECT ON THE GOOD AND BAD TIMES WITH AN EX, OLD FRIENDSHIPS, FAMILY, A JOB AND THAT WAS PASSIONATE TO US. WE REFLECT ONTHE MISTAKES WE'VE MADE. WE REFLECT AND REPLAY THE POSSIBILTIES CONCERNING THE OUTCOMES OF PAST SITUATIONS; REWINDING AND FAST FORWARDING THE MAYBES, BUTS, AND IFS. WE WAIT PATIENTLY HOPING GOD WILL PUT BACK THE SAME THING WE LOST BACK INTO OUR HANDS BUT STILL NO CHANGE, WHY, BECAUSE IT'S TIME TO MOVE FORWARD AND THAT CHAPTER HAS ENDED. THOUGH BEHIND THE SMILES, THE LAUGHTER, SINCERITY, POISE, AND KIND HEART THERE IS STILL HURT, TEARS AND ENDLESS PAIN INSIDE.

GOD HAS ALLOWED MANY OF YOU TO LET GO OR SEPERATE YOURSELF FROM SOMETHING(S) OR SOMEONE FOR A DIVINE PURPOSE. BUT YOU STILL HAVE YET TO SEE THE FREEDOM IN THAT VERY THING HE PARTED YOU FROM. THE SPIRIT IS SAYING TO MANY OF YOU "FOR I AM ABOUT TO DO SOMETHING NEW. SEE, I HAVE ALREADY BEGUN! DO YOU NOT SEE IT? I WILL MAKE A PATHWAY THROUGH THE WILDERNESS. I WILL CREATE RIVERS IN THE DRY WASTELAND (ISAIAH 43:19)." FORGET WHAT'S BEHIND AND LOOK FORWARD TO WHAT'S AHEAD OF YOU. YOU HAVE TO HAVE THE SPIRIT OF EXPECTANCY DEEP DOWN IN YOUR SPIRIT. EXPECT A NEW RELATIONSHIP, A NEW ANOINTING, NEW FAVOUR, NEW DOORS OF HEALING AND RESTORATION.

IN ORDER TO EXPECT SOMETHING NEW YOU HAVE TO QUIT HOLDING ON TO A DEAD SEASON...
"TELL JOHNNY GOODBYE...TELL SUSAN IT WAS NICE WHILE IT LASTED BUT GOTTA GO." YOU HAVE TO PREACH TO YOURSELF SOMETIMES... "IT'S A NEW DAY! I'M REALIZING LORD THERE ARE SOME THIGS AND SOME PEOPLE I CAN'T BRING ALONG IN MY NEW SEASON. I'M REALIZING HOLDING TO WHAT'S DEAD IS BRINGING DEPRESSION, FRUSTRATION, AND STRESS TO MY LIFE. I'VE HELD ON LONG ENOUGH TO STUFF THAT WAS SUPPOSE TO LET GO SEASONS AGO. TODAY, I'M CHOOSING TO TRUST YOU WITH WHAT YOU WANT ME TO GIVE UP!" I ENCOURAGE YOU BROTHERS AND SISTERS TO MOVE FORWARD IN FREEDOM EXPECTING A NEW THING. DON'T LOOK BACK...DON'T TURN AROUND...CONTINUE MOVING FORWARD.

"A NEW THING IS COMING"
-GOD
WHY DO YOU CARE ABOUT A REPUTATION YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT?
THATS YOUR CONSCIENCE FIGHTING THE DEMON
EVERYONE KNOWS YOUR WHERE ABOUTS
YOU CAN BE FOUND LURKING IN THE DARKEST OF ALL PLACES

KEEPING DARK SECRETS
HONESTY MISTAKEN
FOR A SINCERITY, YOU TRY TO PORTRAY
IT'S NOT WHO YOU ARE
YOUR PERSONAS COME AND FADE

SEE THESE SPIRITS YOU POSESS
HAVE COME FROM AFAR
1ST, 2ND, 3RD GENERATION
LOOK HERE YOU ARE

SLOWLY BUT SURELY THEY'RE TAKING YOUR LIFE
REBUKE TO THE ALMIGHTY
SO THINGS ARE MADE RIGHT

(EZEKIEL 18)

-KESIENA
ALL TO JESUS I SURRENDER
ALL TO HIM I FREELY GIVE
I WILL EVER LOVE AND TRUST HIM
IN HIS PRESENCE DAILY LIVE
ALL TO JESUS I SURRENDER
HUMBLY AT HIS FEET I BOW
WORLDLY PLEASURES ALL FORSHAKEN
TAKE ME, JESUS, TAKE ME NOW

I SURRENDER ALL
I SURRENDER ALL
ALL TO THEE MY BLESSED SAVIOR
I SURRENDER ALL
ALL TO JESUS I SURRENDER
MAKE ME SAVIOR WHOLLY THINE
MAY THY HOLY SPIRIT FILL ME
MAY I KNOW THY POWER DIVINE

I SURRENDER ALL
I SURRENDER ALL
ALL TO THEE MY BLESSED SAVIOR
I SURRENDER ALL
I SURRENDER ALL
I SURRENDER ALL
ALL TO THEE MY BLESSED SAVIOR
I SURRENDER ALL
I SURRENDER ALL
ALL TO THEE MY BLESSED SAVIOR
I SURRENDER ALL



-KESIENA 


HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY DALAYLA-MAY! :-)
WISHING YOU LOTS OF LOVE AND BLESSINGS.

-KESIENA AKA AUNTIE CAKE
Xx
YOU HEARD IT WHEN YOU SAID IT
NOW YOU JUST REGRET IT
BECAUSE WHAT YOU THOUGHT WOULD WORK
NOW JUST SOUNDS STUPID

TAKING A STEP BACK IS LIKE...
DANCING WITH A SHARK
SOONER OR LATER
YOU'LL BE LEFT WITH A HEINOUS SCAR

IT'S LAUGHABLE REALLY
WHAT YOU THOUGHT WAS SO,
EXPRESSING A MILLI MOMENT
YOUR FEELINGS COME AND GO

GONE A MOMENT A GO
BACK WITHIN A SECOND
TRIGGERED BY FALSE HAPPINESS
SURELY ITS DEMEANING

I THOUGHT YOU HAD MORE RESPECT FOR YOURSELF
ARE YOU WILLING TO THROW THAT AWAY?
FOR A FALSE EMOTION THAT WILL SURELY FADE

ORALIST OF THE MIND
MANIPULATOR OF WORDS
THE LIE IS FALSE TRUTH
AND YOUR TRUTH ALWAYS HURTS

GET YOUR ACT TOGETHER
YOU'RE BETTER THAN THIS
YOU'LL THANK YOURSELF LATER WHEN YOU HAVE
NO REGRETS

-KESIENA


I REMEMBER WHEN YOU SAID YOU WERE COMING TO STAY...THERE WAS A SLIGHT HESITATION IN MY MIND WHERE I THOUGHT, I DON'T WANT YOU TO COME AND STAY, I DON'T WANT YOU IN MY SPACE, MY PRIVACY YOU WILL INVADE...
THIS IS MY TIME! GET OUT MY WAY!
I DON'T NEED YOU, I DON'T WANT YOU AND I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE...?

WHAT WAS THAT? 
WAS IT SELF DOUBT? WAS IT THE TRUTH BREAKING FREE?
WHERE DID THE FEELINGS GO? I DIDN'T GET TO SAY GOODBYE.
SERIOUSLY WHAT WAS THAT? IS IT MY TRUTH OR EVERYONE ELSE'S?
I DON'T KNOW IF I...LOVE YOU ANYMORE?
DID I EVER? HAS THIS ALL BEEN A LIE?
WHAT ARE YOU SO AFRAID OF..?
THE TRUTH!
WHAT IS THE TRUTH? YOUR LIES? MORE LIES? 
I CONTROL WHAT I FEEL AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE A PART OF WHAT I FEEL...DO YOU UNDERSTAND?
DO YOU UNDERSTAND? I DON'T...AND I DON'T WANT TO BE CONFUSED ANYMORE!
THEN - WHY DID YOU HOLD ON THIS LONG? 

-KESIENA




















HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS JACKSON

-KESIENA 
Xx


DEAR FRIENDS & FAMILY,

 4 DAYS LATE BUT HERE IT IS...
I HONESTLY THOUGHT I WASN'T GOING TO MAKE IT BUT I DID! I MADE IT TO 30...PRAISE GOD! :-) EVERYDAY IS A BATTLE TO MAINTAIN MY MOOD AT A REASONABLE LEVEL TO BE ABLE TO WANT TO LIVE! I WAS SO SURE I WASN'T GOING TO MAKE IT THAT I DIDN'T PLAN ANYTHING OR EVEN CELEBRATE ON MY ACTUAL BIRTHDAY, BUT I HAVE THE REST OF THE MONTH TO DO THAT NOW. :-)

I WOULD LIKE TO THANK MY FRIENDS, FAMILY AND MY SUPPORT SYSTEM FOR NOT GIVING UP ON ME WHEN I GAVE UP ON MYSELF, FOR BELIEVING IN ME WHEN I THOUGHT THERE WAS ONLY ONE WAY OUT! FOR LOVING ME A LITTLE EXTRA WHEN I WAS TO WEAK TO ACKNOWLEDGE MY EXISTENCE. FOR BEING MY PILLAR OF HOPE WHEN I COULDN'T SEE THE LIGHT, FOR REASSURING ME THAT THINGS WOULD GET BETTER. I AM FILLED WITH SO MUCH GRATITUDE.
THANKYOU :-)

I HAVE BEEN SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER BUT WAS DIAGNOSED WITH  BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER BACK IN 2013. I STILL STRUGGLE DAY TO DAY BUT HAVE A GREAT SUPPORT SYSTEM. I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO SHARE THIS AS I FEEL IT COULD HELP SOMEBODY BUT ANXIETY  SEEMS TO GET THE BETTER OF ME.
ONE OF MY BEAUTIFUL BLOGGER FRIENDS SHARED ON HER BLOG THAT SHE SUFFERS FROM DEPRESSION SO I FELT A BIT INSPIRED TO SHARE MY STORY.

I MIGHT GO INTO MORE DETAIL ON THE BLOG WE'LL SEE. ME BEING ME, I MIGHT END UP DELETING THIS AFTER A WHILE. LOL
I FEEL LIKE I'M BABBLING ON AND I'M WEARY ABOUT GOING INTO TOO MUCH DETAIL.

THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE TO THANK, I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START...

ALL THE AMBULANCES, POLICE, NURSES AND DOCTORS WHO CONTINUE TO SAVE ME TIME AND TIME AGAIN. :-( IT MUST BE ANNOYING BUT THANKYOU!
  
TO MY FORMER WORK COLLEAGUES AND COMPANY I USED TO WORK FOR:
FIONA, NICKY, KEN, SALLY, MATT, DAN.Y (AKA BIG BRO) EVERYONE THAT SUPPORTED ME AT THAT COMPANY THANKYOU SO MUCH AND THANKYOU FOR NOT GIVING UP ON ME. Xx

TO MY WONDERFUL WONDERFUL FRIENDS KHADIJAH, LIBERTY, AUNTIE ANIA, MICHEAL, MILLIE, SANTOS, IBIERE, DUANE, DANIEL, JOEL, TUDOR AND MANY MORE.
I REALISE IT WILL TAKE ME A LONG TIME TO NAME EVERYBODY BUT JUST KNOW I APPRECIATE YOU ALL MORE THAN YOU COULD EVER KNOW! I MEAN IT! Xx


TO MY HEAVENLY FATHER,
THANKYOU FOR NOT ACCEPTING MY RIDICULOUS PRAYER REQUESTS IN MY TIME OF SELF DOUBT, CONFUSION AND DEEP DEPRESSION.
LORD I THANKYOU FOR LOVING ME AND SAVING ME AND USING PEOPLE TO SAVE ME TIME AND TIME AGAIN. I KNOW I WILL BEAT THIS IN JESUS NAME.
AMEN

#HAPPY30THBIRTHDAYKESIENA #YOUMADEIT #080415 #30









HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! :-)








#DearMe

STRONG WOMEN!
"MAY WE KNOW THEM, MAY WE RAISE THEM, MAY WE BE THEM" 

-KESIENA

DRAWN WITH MY SAMSUNG GALAXY NOTE 4

#iCREATE

MEET ACE! AKA MR SNOOTY PANTS.
I CAN'T STAND THIS GUY HE'S SO ANNOYING AND THINKS HE KNOW'S IT ALL! JUST SHUT UP ALREADY! LOL

-KESIENA 



#FAMILYPORTRAITS

MASTER ZEEKY ON WORLD BOOK DAY. :-)





SHE STOOD BOLD GUARDING THAT WALL
AND THE GUARD CAME TUMBLING DOWN...

I FOUND BEAUTY IN THE MOMENT
BUT THATS ALL IT WAS "A MOMENT"
ONE THAT CAN WANE AS APACE AS IT CAME

A MOMENT OF PURE SINCERITY
OF ME BEING ELATED
OVERJOYED BY YOUR MAGIC
TRUSTING THE WORDS YOU SAY

BUT LITERALLY,
IT WAS JUST A MOMENT
THE MOMENT HAS GONE
BUT THE FEELINGS REMAIN...

THE MOMENT IN WHICH MY HEART,BECAME A GYMNAST
SUMERSALT,BACKFLIPS,ACROBATIC TERRORIST
TERRORIST TO MY HEART,INTERNAL EXPLOSION
EMOTIONS SKY HIGH
MY THOUGHTS PROVOKED AND...

SHE STOOD BOLD GUARDING THAT WALL
AND THE GUARD CAME TUMBLING DOWN

A MOMENT OF MADNESS
NO MORE SADNESS
MY FROWNS, FLIPPED UPSIDE DOWN

UPSIDE DOWN
FLOATING ON CLOUD 9
I'M-SO-HAPPY NOW...
FOR THE MOMENT

-KESIENA



I FEEL LIKE I'M FLOATING ON CLOUD 9 AND IT'S THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD! IS IT?









I DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS IS BUT I NEED IT TO GO AWAY.
MY BODY SEEMS TO BE RELIVING TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCES FROM LAST YEAR AND I CAN'T SEEM TO CONTROL IT. 
IT'S LIKE HAVING NIGHTMARES WHILE I'M AWAKE. 
IMAGINE THAT FOR A SECOND...
I FEEL LIKE I'M EMOTIONALLY PARALYZED, ALL THE EMOTIONS I FELT DURING THAT TIME OVERTAKE MY BODY AND I'M STUCK. 
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?WHY IS MY BODY SUBCONCIOUSLY RELIVING THESE MOMENTS? 

I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M WRITING THIS ON HERE,MAYBE I'LL DELETE IT LATER.
I DON'T NORMALLY WRITE #KSILIFE POSTS HERE BUT....I DUNNO I JUST FELT LIKE IT.I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M WRITING ABOUT ANYMORE I JUST NEEDED A RELEASE. 
I MADE A FEW MINOR CHANGES TO THE GALLERY I REALLY LIKE IT I JUST NEED TO ADJUST A FEW THINGS.

"THIS TOO SHALL PASS." 

-KESIENA



















HAPPY BIRTHDAY
SISSY POO,LOVE YOU!
GOOD LUCK THIS WEEK I KNOW YOU'RE GOING TO SMASH IT!

Xx
#TUNIP #TUNIP





DAMN YOU GOT AN ATTITUDE
BORDERLINE B****
OBESELY RUDE
YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAY
YOU ARE WHAT YOU EAT
WITH THE S*** YOU COME UP WITH
YOU MUST'VE HAD A MOTHER F****** FEAST!

-KESIENA

PRETEND TO CARE
BECAUSE YOU WANT SOMETHING
SOMETHING FOR NOTHING IS ALMOST CRIMESTOPPING

NO CHANCES TAKEN IN YOUR FALSE APPROACH
YOU'RE HERE TO GAIN
MY EMOTIONS PREVOKED

HEY,HOW YOU DOING...
YES I'M FINE!
CAN YOU DO ME A FAVOUR?
DON'T WASTE NO TIME...
NEVER REALLY CARED ABOUT MY WELL BEING
JUST ENOUGH TO...BECAUSE IT'S YOU I'M PLEASING

I HEAR IT IN YOUR TONE
ENERGY TRANSFERRED
PRETENDERS PASS VOIDED
F*** WHAT YOU HEARD!

ME, MYSELF AND I, MENTALITY GAIN
TARGET GONE, PRETENDER PASS FAIL

-KESIENA

YOU'RE UNCOMFORTABLE?
BECAUSE I'M COMFORTABLE?
GREW A NEW LAYER OF SKIN
IRREPLACEABLE!

NO BAND AIDS
SELF SATISFACTION

YOUR SELF DESTRUCTION
MIRRORED BY YOUR ACTIONS

TALKING DOWN-TO-ME
ANGERED BY MY UPCOMING...
NEW REVELATIONS
NO SHORTCOMINGS

WORKED HARD TO REACH THIS DESTINATION
UNCONDITIONAL BLESSINGS FOR THE TAKING
FUTURE SO BRIGHT
DAILY PRESENTS IN THE MAKING..

YOU-SEEM-SO..?

"YES! I KNOW WHO I AM"

REMEMBER-WHEN-YOU..?

"YES! I'VE LEARNED FROM MY PAST..."

YOU-USED-TO-BE-SOOO...

"BUT LOOK AT ME NOW!...TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT
BOTOX COMPLETE NOW...
YOU MAY LEAVE!"

-KESIENA



SOMETIMES IN ORDER TO BE HAPPY
I NEED TO BE ALONE
FOR ME ALONE, IS A PLACE CALLED HOME
A PLACE OF HEALING,WHERE I CAN BE MYSELF
MUTED OBSERVATIONS,REQUIREMENTS ON THE SHELF
PAUSE:
I CAN'T BE WHAT YOU ASK OF ME
YOU SEE ME BEING ALONE...
MEANS I'M HOME TO BE FREE

-KESIENA






https://twitter.com/DanielArsham   https://www.facebook.com/pages/Daniel-Arsham/161264877394511    instagram.com/daniel_arsham






REMEMBERING THOSE WHO LOST LOVED ONES 13 YEARS AGO TODAY.
MAY THEY RIP

-KESIENA








  
SAY, SOMETHING,I'M GIVING UP ON YOU
I'LL BE THE ONE,IF YOU WANT ME TO
ANYWHERE,I WOULD'VE FOLLOWED YOU
SAY SOMETHING,I'M GIVING UP ON YOU

AND I AM FEELING SO SMALL
IT WAS OVER MY HEAD
I KNOW NOTHING AT ALL
AND I WILL STUMBLE AND FALL
I'M STILL LEARNING TO LOVE
JUST STARTING TO CRAWL

SAY SOMETHING,I'M GIVING UP ON YOU
I'LL BE THE ONE,IF YOU WANT ME TO
ANYWHERE,I WOULD'VE FOLLOWED YOU
SAY SOMETHING,I'M GIVING UP ON YOU

AND I WILL SWALLOW MY PRIDE
YOU'RE THE ONE THAT I LOVE
AND I'M SAYING GOODBYE

SAY SOMETHING,I'M GIVING UP ON YOU
SAY SOMETHING...

http://youtu.be/-2U0Ivkn2Ds

SONG LYRICS FOR "SAY SOMETHING" BY A GREAT BIG WORLD








#JamesEarlJones




DEAR FRANK,
I ADMIRE YOU
I FIND YOUR EMPATHETIC KIND OF LOVE
THERAPEUTICAL

YOU CARE SO DEEPLY
WITH UNDERSTANDING
SO GENUINE,NO DEMANDMENTS

YOU LISTEN TENTIVELY,PASSING NO JUDGEMENTS
I CONFIDE IN YOU
OUR TRUST IN ENLIGNMENT

THE PERFECT GENTLEMAN
ENCOURAGING IN EVERY WAY
MINDFUL OF SUBCONCIOUS NEGATIVITY
I MAY PORTRAY

A FATHERS KIND OF LOVE
WHAT I TRULY CRAVE
AN ETERNAL LOVE
THAT WILL NEVER FADE AWAY

I THINK THATS WHY I HOLD YOU
SO CLOSE TO MY HEART
DREADING OF THE DAY WE'LL HAVE TO PART

-KESIENA

HAPPY 1ST DAY ZEEKY BOY!
WE LOVE YOU. :-)
LOTS OF LOVE FROM
MUMMY,DADDY,AUNTIES,UNCLES,GRANDMA,GRANDPA & FRIENDS ETC.

WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST.
XX


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL.
WE LOVE YOU!

-KESIENA
Xx


   

       

   

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GOODBYE 


-KESIENA


RIP ROBIN WILLIAMS
JULY 21 1951-AUGUST 11 2014

"I LIKE MY MISTAKES AND I LIKE THE WAY I LEARN,
AND I LIKE THE PACE, WITH WHICH I LEARN MY  MISTAKES.
I DON'T WANNA BE ANYBODY ELSE...BUT ME!
AND BY KNOWING THIS...I WANNA CONTINUE FIGURING OUT,WHO THE F*** I AM! THATS IT!"

-ZOE SALDANA

#FOODFORTHOUGHT



WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT..?
WE'RE NOT REALLY FRIENDS
MORE LIKE CONVENIENDS..
WE DON'T REALLY SPEAK
TILL THE NEXT TIME WE MEET
WHEN WE DO ITS LIKE A FAKE MEET & GREET

YOU NEED ME...
I DON'T! BUT YOU DO!
ONLY WHEN YOU WANT SOMETHING 
AND ITS A GOOD TIME FOR YOU
F THAT S***! 
NOT WHAT I'M ABOUT! 
I'M ABOUT TO INCONVENIENCE YOU PERMANENTLY
FROM HERE ON OUT!

-KESIENA







I WANT TO RUN AWAY FROM MYSELF
TORMENTED WITH PAIN 
FRANKLY YOU CAN'T HELP

DISTRESSED WITHIN THE CORE OF MY SOUL
PASTS PAINS,REGRETS,STORIES UNTOLD
YEARNING FOR PEACE,A PEACE SO PURE
LONGING FOR A BROKEN HEART: NO MORE! 

PIECES OF MYSELF
I STILL PRETEND TO BE
IMITATED FROM THE GRATENESS I USED TO BE

SHE WANTS TO RUNAWAY FROM HERSELF...
PLACE ALL HER PAST HURT ON A CLEANSING SHELF
BE FREE FROM THE SHACKLES THAT BIND HER GIFT
POTENTIALLY CAPABLE
FEARFUL TO SUCCEED

YOU WANT TO RUNAWAY FROM YOURSELF
YOU'RE SURE IF YOU RUN
DESTRUCTION WILL NO LONGER HELP

A REGIME I'VE CREATED
TO SET HER FREE (TEMPORARILY)
CLEAR HER MIND
HOPING SHE'LL LEAVE

SHE WANTS TO RUNAWAY FROM MYSELF
3 PERSONAS?...3 MINDS? 
DO WE NEED HELP? 

PERSONALITY DISORDER? 
DISORDERLY AM I?
WHICH ONE OF HER IS CRYING? 
ARE THESE (HER) TEARS JUST LIES

SHE CAN CRY ONE MINUTE
BE HAPPY THE NEXT
GET HERSELF TOGETHER
PRESENTING HERSELF AS THE BEST (BEST?)

IS THAT ME I SEE? 
 SUCCUMBING TO JUDGEMENT AND FEAR
LIVING MY LIFE BY WHAT I HEAR
OF HERSELF? 

1/3 OF ME,HER!
THE BROKEN ONE
A PART OF ME I CHOOSE TO FLEE
I'M TIRED OF CONFUSION
MINDFULL OF THIS POEM I WROTE

LETS SEE WHAT THEY THINK
WHEN THEY READ MY NOTES

-KESIENA




WWW.LAURAMVULA.COM


CLARENCE WILLIAMS III
















#ConfidentLiar



#InGodWeTrust











HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE! 









HAVE YOU LOST WEIGHT? 
NO...YOU'RE JUST FAT!
RID OF THOSE CLOTHES I HATE TO LOOK AT

YOU DON'T LOOK 18
JUDGMENT MISTOLD
I'D EASILY MISTAKE YOU FOR A 32 YEAR OLD

YOU LIKE TO LOOK UGLY
UNLIKE THE REST
MAKING AN EFFORT TO ALWAYS LOOK THEIR BEST

A DISGRACE TO MY WOMB
CAN'T BELIEVE YOU CAME OUT
I'D RATHER I NEVER GAVE BIRTH 
TO A FAILURE LIKE YOURSELF

-KESIENA









HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
TO ALL THE WONDERFUL MOTHERS.

-KESIENA








WISHING MY BEAUTIFUL FRIEND KHADIJAH
 A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH AN AMAZING FRIEND, SISTER ETC.

YOU CONTINUE TO BRING JOY TO MY LIFE. 
THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE. 
I LOVE YOU KAY KAY. 

(WINKS, LICKS LIPS, GRABS BOOB, SPANKS ASS) LOL

LOVE ALWAYS, 
Xx



YOU CALL THIS FRIENDSHIP? 
I CALL IT DEEP S***!
THROWING PAST HURT IN MY FACE
THERES NO NEED FOR IT

I NEED TO GET OVER IT? 
INSENSITIVE! 
BUT THEN AGAIN, YOU'RE AN ASS
ALL THE WAY FROM CONNECTICUT! 

YOU SAY YOU'RE NOT BEING "FUNNY"
BUT YOUR STRAIGHT UP RUDE
BEHAVIOUR IS LIKE...
373: DUDE

NOT STICKING AROUND
TO WATCH MY HEART BREAK, 
IT'S BEEN BRUISED ENOUGH
FOR PITY'S SAKE!

BUT YOU KNOW THIS!? 
YOU'RE AN INSENSITIVE ASS! 
WHO LIKES TO REKINDLE MY HURT WITH PAIN FROM THE PAST

I LOVE MYSELF ENOUGH, 
TO NOT GO THROUGH IT AGAIN
ALLOW MYSELF TO BE EMOTIONALLY TORTURED
BY A CRAPPY FRIEND

-KESIENA



HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER YO! 
WE'RE ALL SOOO PROUD OF THE WOMAN YOU'RE BECOMING. :-)
MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS, PROTECT AND GUIDE YOU EVERY STEP OF THE WAY. 

LOVE ALWAYS, 
BIG SIS
Xx





I FORGIVE YOU...
FOR ALL THE LIES YOU TOLD, 
DEEP DOWN INSIDE
IT MUST BE EATING UP YOUR SOUL

I FORGIVE YOU...
FOR YOUR FOOLISH WAYS
AND HOW, THROUGH DECEPTION
A CLEVER GAME YOU PLAYED

I FORGIVE YOU...
IT'S NOT REALLY YOUR FAULT,
THE DEVIL IS A LIAR! 
YOU'RE TRAPPED IN HIS VAULT

I FORGIVE YOU...
FOR THE SPIRIT OF GREEDY GAIN, 
LUST ARE YOUR OPTIONS
YOU ONLY HAVE ONE AIM

I FORGIVE YOU...
FOR SLOPPY MANIPULATION,
GOD KNOWS KARMAS A B**** 
AND THATS YOUR FINAL DESTINATION

AFTER ALL THE HURT
AND LIES YOU TOLD, 
PAIN YOU CAUSED
373 ASSHOLE

WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE
I'VE FOUND PEACE IN MY HEART
AND I'M THANKFUL YOU NEVER HAD THE CHANCE
TO TEAR ME APART!

DON'T YOU KNOW? 
I'M A DAUGHTER OF CHRIST
HE WILL ALWAYS HAVE MY BACK
HE'S MY RIDE & DIE!

I FORGIVE YOU. 

-KESIENA


#CODE373



ONCE AGAIN,
THANKYOU SOOO MUCH
YOU'RE AMAZING. 

-KESIENA
Xx














WOW! YOU'RE 41!
A BIG LITTLE LIE
ANOTHER MISUNDERSTANDING? 
YOU'D CERTAINLY DENY...

CODE 373
CODE OF DECIEVEMENT,
WITH ALL THESE MINUTE DECEPTIONS
YOU'RE PROFESSIONALLY MISLEADING...

"HOW DO I LOOK?"
YOU SOUND LIKE A LIAR! 
BECAUSE LOOKS ARE DECIEVING
AND YOU'RE A GRADE 1 TRYER

PROFESSIONAL WITH YOUR ACT
FIGURED PERSONAS OUT, 
SO YOU KNOW HOW MANY LIES
TO ALLOW FLYING OUT YOUR MOUTH

IS THAT WHY YOUR TOOTH BROKE? 
SOMEONE PUNCHED YOU IN THE FACE? 
BECAUSE OF ALL YOUR LIES...
YOU'VE BECOME A BIG DISGRACE

LIES TO A FRIEND...
THE FRIEND WITH A HEART
GENUINE WITH LOVE
HONEST FROM THE START

YOU BASTARD! 
YOU F%#*@?! PIECE OF S***!
DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA? 
CAUSE THATS WHAT YOU'RE GONNA GET! 

-KESIENA


MR. PHARRELL WILLIAMS YOU ARE A CREATIVE GENIUS. 
I'M SO HAPPY FOR ALL YOUR CURRENT AND FUTURE SUCCESS'.

THANKYOU, FOR BEING A CREATIVE FORCE
THAT EMBODIES...GREAT INSPIRATION, KNOWLEDGE AND A HUMBLE HEART. 

LOVE ALWAYS,  


Xx




I FIND IT HARD TO ARTICULATE THE GOINGS
ON OF MY MIND. 
IT MAY NOT MAKE SENSE
AND SOMETIMES MIGHT RHYME.

PRESS REWIND PRESS REWIND...
I JUST NEED A RELEASE
HEAR ME....BREEEAAATHHHEE

HEAR ME! 
WHO I NEVER WANT TO BE
YOU'VE HEARD IT BEFORE
IT SET ME FREE

CAN YOU HEAR ME? 
AM I DYING? 
DO I ALWAYS SOUND LIKE I'M LYING? 

ARE YOU FEARFUL? 
BECAUSE I'M TRYING? 
FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE
FOREVER CRYING

I AM A PLACE OF DESTRUCTION
WAITING FOR THE MASSES TO GATHER, 
UNAWARE OF THE VIRUS MANIFESTED

TIME INVESTED, 
SET ME FREE FROM MYSELF
TAKE ME NOW
SHOW ME HOW

TO FIND A WAY OUT! 

-KESIENA


















HAVE YOU HEARD THAT SAYING? 
"ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS"
WELL THE S*** YOU'RE SAYING...
MOTHERFUCKING HURTS! 

NO CALLS, NO TEXT,NO...
"HI THERE...YOU ALRIGHT?"
YOU NEVER REALLY CARED!
EVERY LINE YOU FED ME WAS A LIE!

I'M CHOKING ON THAT S***
F%*#@?! HYMAN MANEUVER QUICK! 

ITS TOO LATE...ITS GONE DOWN
TIME WASTED, INEVITABLE NOW

LESSON LEARNED, NEXT CHAPTER!
TIME TO TURN THIS DECAYING PAGE
I'M SURE WE HAVE REGRETS
TO WHICH WE ALL RELATE

REMEMBER ACTIONS SPEAK VOLUMES

-KESIENA

A MAN SO GIVING
A MAN SO LOVING
A MAN HARDWORKING
 HE DOESN'T ASK FOR NOTHING

JUST BECAUSE: 
HE DOES IT OUT OF LOVE
HE HAS A GOOD HEART SENT FROM ABOVE

THIS MAN I KNOW, HE TAKES MY BREATH AWAY
I PRAY THE LORD PROTECTS HIM EVERYDAY

THIS GOOD MAN, IS HARD TO FIND
SO WHEN YOU FIND HIM
DON'T LET HIM OUTTA SIGHT

THIS GOOD MAN, 
 I REALLY LOVE HIM SO
FOREVER AND ALWAYS I'D LIKE OUR LOVE TO GROW

HE'S BEEN LIKE A BROTHER AND A BEST FRIEND
I KNOW IN MY HEART WE'LL BE FRIENDS TILL THE END

-KESIENA





      






JUDGE THY JUDGE
PANNING EYES OF DESTRUCTION
RIDDEN WITH FEAR
A LOOK THATS INTIMIDATING

JUDGED NO LOVE
VIEWED ONLY TO BE WORTHLESS
CONFORMING TO SOCIAL VIEWS
ROBOTIC TO FILL THY PURPOSE

SCRUTINIZING VIEWS 
ONE HAS NO IDENTITY
THE EYES OF JUDGMENT
UNAWARE OF THEIR BRUTALITY

LABELLED AS A WASTE
A FAILURE TO MYSELF
STRIPPED DOWN NAKED
PLACED ON YOUR BANEFUL SCATHING SHELF

-KESIENA

IF THERE'S ONE THING I CAN'T STAND, 
 ITS ARROGANCE! 
ANOTHER F%#*@?! THING IS COMPARISON! 

IF YOU'RE NOT HAPPY WITH ME...?
GO MAKE A DUPLICATE!!
A BETTER VERSION OF "YOURSELF"
CAUSE YOU'RE FULL OF BULLSHIT!

YOUR SHIT IS MULTIPLYING, 
LEAVING A STENCH 
NOT HAPPY WITH YOURSELF
SO YOU COMPARE ME TO THE NEXT...

I'M LIMITED EDITION! 
I WAS MADE GREAT
GREATEST • ORIGINAL • DESIGNER (G.O.D)
HE MADE NO MISTAKES

IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME? 
TAKE IT UP WITH HIM
CHECK YOUR JUDGMENTAL HEART
LOOKS LIKE ITS FULL OF SIN! 

-KESIENA



DEAREST JOEL AKA DAD :-)
I WOULD LIKE TO WISH YOU THE
HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY EVER! 
I PRAY THE LORD CONTINUES TO BLESS,
PROTECT AND GUIDE YOU. 
I PRAY HE GRANTS YOU ALL YOUR HEARTS DESIRES FOR
THIS YEAR AND THE FUTURE. 

LOVE ALWAYS, 
Xx



HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY FRIENDS. 
WISHING YOU ALL A LOVELY DAY.

-KESIENA

HELLO! 
NICE TO MEET YOU
I SAW YOU JUDGING ME
SO I THOUGHT I'D GREET YOU

I LIKE THE WAY YOU PAN ME UP AND DOWN
THINK YOU'RE BETTER THAN ME 
I DON'T SEE NO CROWN

SHALLOW TO THE CORE
EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU IS FAKE
PERSONALITY IS PROGRAMMED
HAD TIME TO LET IT BAKE

IN THE OVEN OF YOUR OWN SELF CONVENIENCE
100° BITCH FAKE FAHRENHEIT SEASONING

-KESIENA

SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO LET THE PAST REMAIN IN THE PAST. MOVING FORWARD IS A HEALING PROCESS. 
ONE CANNOT PROGRESS AND MOVE FORWARD WHILST REREADING THE SAME CHAPTER.
SAYING GOODBYE TO OLD WAYS AND TOXIC FRIENDSHIPS IS A FORM OF SELF RENEWAL. 
A SOUL THAT IS PURE FROM TOXINS CAN LEARN TO LOVE, TRUST AND FORM NEW COMPANIONSHIPS. 

THIS SEASON...
I THINK I FOUND THE REASON
YOU REMOVED THIS PERSON FROM MY LIFE
BECAUSE THEY'RE QUITE MISLEADING

BUT I UNDERSTAND, 
IN THE PROCESS YOU CREATE
THE TIMING, THE PLANNING
AND HOW IT ALL RELATES

I'M THANKFUL, FOR LESSONS ALONG THE WAY
IT'S A JOURNEY OF SELF WISDOM
ONE THAT WILL NEVER FADE

TO BE HONEST
I'M GRATEFUL FOR THAT TIME
BUT NOW I'M READY TO STAND MY GROUND
CONQUER THE WORLD
WATCH ME FLY

-KESIENA

I HOLD A WARMNESS IN MY HEART
ELICIT BY THOUGHTS OF YOU, 

ETERNAL MOMENTS OF JOY
ACCOMPANIED BY A LOVE THAT WILL NEVER CONCLUDE, 

I HOLD FOREVER IN MY HEART, 
FOREVER I'LL WAIT FOR YOU

FOR YOU'RE MY FOREVER AFTER
AND I LONG TO BE WITH YOU

-KESIENA

I LAUGH TO HIDE THE PAIN
DID YOU NOTICE ME? 
DANCING IN THE RAIN? 
OF THE STORM, OF MY PAIN, TIDES OWN ME, SO INSANE
I'M DROWNING
SOMEONE SAVE ME,SHOW ME HOW, 
 TO BECOME THAT LADY
I SEE IN MY DREAMS, I WAS DESTINED TO BE, SO CREATIVE

SOMEHOW I'VE FALLEN...

SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN OF MY DREAMS THATS NOW FROZEN

-KESIENA



TELL ME? 
IF YOU'RE SO EMOTIONALLY STABLE..?
WHY ARE YOU NOT GENUINELY ABLE? 

TO SPEAK WELL OF YOURSELF
 WITHOUT BRINGING OTHERS DOWN
THROWING PEOPLES FAULTS OUT THERE
WEARING YOUR FAKE CROWN

ENLIGHTEN ME? 
YOU'RE EMOTIONALLY STABLE RIGHT? 
BUT SOMEONE SO SECURE 
DOES NOT BRING OTHERS FAULTS TO LIGHT

DO YOU NEED TO REVEL, IN OTHERS DOWNFALLS
SO YOU CAN GLOAT ABOUT HOW YOU SUPPOSEDLY HAVE IT ALL

YOU SOUND LIKE THE PRETENDER
WITH A POTABLE HEART
SLOPPY AND MANIPULATIVE
BUT RELATIVELY SMART

YOU ONLY SEEM TO SING PRAISE OF YOURSELF
WHEN PEOPLE ARE VIEWED NEGATIVELY 
ON YOUR HIGH HORSE SHELF!

CONFIDENCE IS SILENT
INSECURITIES ARE LOUD
REMEMBER THAT THE NEXT TIME
YOU PRAISE YOURSELF IN FRONT OF A CROWD

EMOTIONALLY STABLE? 
DON'T MAKE ME LAUGH
YOU'RE NOT FOOLING ANYONE
WE SEE RIGHT THROUGH THAT MASK

-KESIENA

COMEBACK? THROWBACK? MEMORIES? ALL TRACKED!
CAPTURED, LAUGH ATTACKS
THIS MIGHT BE A SETBACK

I'M CAUTIOUS! CURIOUS? 
AS TO WHY THE SUDDEN INTEREST? 
BOREDOM? GUILTY CONCIOUS? WANT TO PUT YOUR MIND AT REST?

TOO BLESSED TO BE STRESSED
MY GOD HAS BEEN GREAT
HELPED ME THROUGH TOUGH TIMES
TIMING, NEVER LATE

DON'T NEED YOU IN MY FUTURE EVER
OR EVEN TODAY

UNDERSTAND YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT
TO MAKE A COMEBACK IN MY LIFE! 
STEPBACK! 

-KESIENA




I CHOOSE...
TO OVERRIDE FEAR
WITH THE DETERMINATION TO SUCCEED
THE AMBITION TO LIVE
WITH THE KNOWLEDGE TO GIVE

I CHOOSE TO...
LOVE WITHOUT FEAR
LISTEN THROUGH MY POSITIVE EAR
AND REMAIN CONFIDENT, 
WITH SITUATIONS THAT MAY ADHERE

I WILL BE THAT GIRL
 I'VE SEEN IN MY DREAMS
THAT CREATES EVERY OPPORTUNITY
AND MAKES HER DREAMS REALITY

I WILL NOT BE BOUND, 
BY THE FEAR OF FAILURE
PAST DISAPPOINTMENTS
AND WORRIES OF OLD AGE

I WILL BE MOTIVATED BY MY GOAL
GETTING BACK UP WHEN I FALL
AND KNOWING THAT
I AM DESIGNED TO DO GREAT THINGS!

PHILIPPIANS CH 4 v 13

-KESIENA



         

      

           




I USED TO BE NORMAL?
HIDING FROM BROKEN
WORDS LEFT UNSPOKEN
TRANQUILITY IS DEAD

NOW I'M ANOMALOUS WITH A BORDERLINE BRAIN
THE NOXIOUS HABITATS HAVE PILFERED AWAY

MY PSYCHE:

BRANDED AS UNSTABLE, 
DISORDERLY TO MYSELF
BUT CATASTROPHICLY ABLE

TO PERPETUATE, PART TIME HEALTH
PUTREFYING INTERNALLY
EXTERIOR ON THE SHELF

IT'S SATISFACTORY
I'M SURE I'LL BE FINE
I KNOW THAT SOMEDAY
ONCE MORE I SHALL FLY

-KESIENA



"ONLY IN THE DARKNESS CAN YOU SEE THE STARS."
-MARTIN LUTHER KING JR


SHE LIKES TO PORTRAY GOOD INTENTIONS
SMILING, GIVING, ALWAYS BOLD
MISTAKING HER CONDESCENSION FOR FORTITUDE
WHAT IS VERITABLE OF HER 
IS WHAT SHE DOES NOT KNOW

DEEP BENEATH THAT POTABLE SURFACE
LIES A DESTRUCTIVE,  DECEITFUL, DISSIPATED SOUL
DESIRING, THE VILEST FOR PEOPLE
IS HER MOST TRETAROUS AND SECLUDED GOAL

ONE THAT IS MANIPULATIVE, COY AND SMART
TOTALLY WARPED,  WITH AN UNDULY HEART
ANTICIPATING FOR A PERSONS NEXT DOWNFALL
SO SHE CAN REVEL ABOUT HOW SHE HAS IT ALL

EXPLOITING PEOPLE FOR HER OWN SELFISH GAIN
NOTHING WORKED FOR, BUT YET SHE CLAIMS
ALWAYS HAS TO LOOK LIKE THE GIVING DO GOODER
"THE PRETENDER" WITH A POTABLE HEART
PLAYING A CLEVER GAME.

-KESIENA



HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR KING. 





MEET CHANTAR


THERE ISN'T A MAGIC PILL YA KNOW
FOR EVERY SETBACK YOU HAVE OR TRIAL THAT MAY FOLLOW
WITH GOD'S GRACE, MERCY, FAVOUR AND STRENGTH
HIS POWER INVESTED WILL TAKE YOUR LIFE OFF THE BENCH

YOU CAN DO IT
PHILLIPIANS CHAPTER 4 v13
KNOWLEDGE IS POWER
THE ENEMY SHALL FLEE

PATIENCE, UNDERSTANDING AND LOVE IS A MUST
LEAVE YOUR LIFE IN HIS HANDS
BECAUSE IN GOD WE MUST TRUST

AMEN

YOU COMPLETE ME?
YOU MAKE ME FEEL WHOLE?
AN INTERNAL ILLUSION IN MY MIND 
SELF GROWN

I'M COMPLETELY...
I WAS FINE BEFORE YOU CAME
NO LONGER THE SAME
MY FEELINGS SHOULD BE TAMED

YOU DECEIVED ME?
YOU POSIONED MY MIND
CONCIOUS OF YOUR ACTIONS, 
THE-ENTIRE TIME

HALLUCINATING?
IS ALL OF THIS REAL?
OR IS THIS PART OF THE TRICKERY
YOU WANTED ME TO FEEL

LIBERATED!
AN UNREQUIRED LOVE
YOU'RE A LOVER OF DAMAGE
A PRODUCT OF DAMAGED LOVE

-KESIENA


MEET LOVELOCK

#HeliaTheHobbit   #iCREATE   #HTH

HAVE YOU EVER KNOWN SOMEONE WHO
DOES NICE THINGS FOR YOU WITH THE
INTENTION THAT EVERYTHING GOES WRONG?

YOU HAVE A HUNCH
YOU CAN FEEL IT
YOU'RE NOT SURE
IS IT REALLY?

THEY'LL BE YOUR BEST FRIEND IN PUBLIC,
BUT BEHIND CLOSED DOORS...

THE PRETENDER
INVISIBLE OFFENDER
KNOWS NO BOUNDARIES
TO THEIR HIDDEN AGENDA

THEY'LL PRETEND-
TO BE YOUR BEST FRIEND
CRY WITH YOU
LAUGH WITH YOU
I MEANT @ WITH THEIR FRIENDS

WORKS CLOSELY
SABOTAGING YOUR GOALS
DO "NICE THINGS" FOR YOU
SO ITS THEM YOU OWE

HAVE I TOLD YOU
THEY WANT YOU TO BE GREAT
BUT NOT BETTER THAN THEM
THEY LIKE TO TAKE TAKE TAKE

MANIPULATOR
SPIRIT OF GREEDY GAIN
CLAIMS YOUR WEAK
AND YOU'RE THEIR AIM

1 LAST THING,BEFORE I END
REMEMBER...THE PRETENDER
IS PRETENDING TO BE YOUR FRIEND

-KESIENA



WISHING YOU ALL A VERY
HAPPY NEW YEAR
FULL OF UNCONDITIONAL
BLESSINGS.

-KESIENA

I CAN'T BELIEVE I MADE IT
I'M STILL HERE
NO MORE TIME WASTING
CONQUERING MY FEARS

I'M SO ELATED
A SMILES QUITE RARE
SO MUCH TO BE GRATEFUL FOR
THIS PAST YEAR

I AM THE WAY, THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE
THE DEVIL TRIED TO KILL ME
I PUT UP A FIGHT
I'M STILL STANDING
GOD BY MY SIDE
G.O.D
THATS MY RIDE OR DIE

POWERED BY PRAISE
HE WILL NEVER LET ME GO
SACRIFICED HISELF FOR ME
ON THE THRONE

NO MORE TIME WASTING
GOD HAS A PLAN
BY THE BLOOD OF CHRIST
I KNOW WHO I AM

-KESIENA

I'M SCREEEEAAAMMMMING!!!
YOU'RE NOT HEARING ME?
I'M FEARFUL! YOU'RE NOT PROTECTING ME!
NEGLECTING ME,TOTALLY REJECTING ME
CLAIM YOU'RE THE LAW...?
DAY TO DAY
SHE'S THREATENING ME

SHE'S MANIPULATION,WITH A DASH OF EMPATHY
FULL OF BIRD SHIT,NARCISSISTIC TENDENCIES
QUEEN OF DIRTY PIGEONS
MEDICAL...COCKTAILS
CRAZY TO THE ROOF
ST M _ _ _ _ _ FAIL

REALIZATION!
WE'RE THE ONES THATS CRAZY?
5 SANE WOMEN
COMPLAINING ABOUT A LADY
PIGEON SHIT EATER
MC ( MEDICAL COCKTAIL) DRINKER
PSYCHOPATH BEHAVIOUR

HER LIES UNDETECTED!

-KESIENA




MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL,
HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD ONE
EAT LOTS AND BE MERRY
LOTS OF LOVE,

-KESIENA



WISHING YOU A VERY HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY FROM
FRIENDS AND FAMILY.

     








                        


                               



   







#HeliaTheHobbit   #iCREATE   #HTH



I WRITE!
MY WORDS ARE MY FIGHT
NO PHYSICAL ABUSE
I KNOW THAT'S NOT RIGHT

I TRY..TO
LET IT GO, BRUSH IT OFF
RAGE CREEPING, BLOOD BOILING
SOOO SILENT
THINK I'M SOFT

CHANGE SEASONS-
I HAVE A REASON (BELIEVE ME)

SO TIRED OF THIS S***
£2 WHORE
BIRD B****

LORD-HELP-ME
I'M FALLING,
I'M NOT PREPARED
NO PRIOR WARNING

I'M ON MY KNEES;
BEGGING PLEASE
FREE FROM THIS
CRUEL INSANITY

DOWNFALL, BACKSLIDE, SPECULATE, BRAINS FRIED!
WHAT IS THIS?
TOO LATE...
NO ONE TO-

PRESS BACK
IT'S NOT A GAME
SPEAK UP, LOOK BACK

CHANGE LANES
REAL LIFE
ROUND 1...IWRITE!



A SERIES OF STORIES BASED
ON REAL LIFE EVENTS.
NARRATED AND ILLUSTRATED BY ME
COMING SOON.

-KESIENA

#HeliaTheHobbit   #iCREATE   #HTH




"IF YOU GET YOUR MIND GOING IN THE RIGHT
DIRECTION.
YOUR LIFE WILL GO IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION."

-JOEL OSTEEN





East London, December 2013
Photographed by KSI



OPTIONS OPEN
MORALS CLOSED
NO PROTECTION
HEARTS EXPOSED

DO YOU SEE IT?
IS IT REAL?
AM I DREAMING?
SO SURREAL

RAW RAW...I FEEL RAW
INVISIBLE INCISIONS
PLEASE NO MOOOORREEEE

OPERATE!
THIS WOUND MUST HEAL
YOU MAY NOT SEE IT
BUT THE PAIN I FEEL...

SMILEEEEEE..
EVERYTHING LOOKS FINE,
THERE ARE NO SCARS
FOR THE TORTURE INSIDE

YOU LIED!
8 YEARS!
CONFIRMING, ALL MY FEARS

THESE TEARS OF INFINITE RAIN
WILL HARDLY, WASH AWAY THE PAIN

I HOPE,YOU KNOW
ONE DAY-THIS PAIN SHALL GO

UNTIL,THAT TIME
I HOPE THAT YOU WILL FIND
A PLACE TO PRESS RESTART,
TO STOP DESTROYING HUMAN HEARTS

BECAUSE THE WORST THING
YOU COULD DO
IS CREATE SOMEONE LIKE YOU

-KESIENA


  







    

"IT'S NOT ABOUT HAVING THE SKILL TO DO SOMETHING.
ITS ABOUT HAVING THE WILL,DESIRE & COMMITMENT
TO BE YOUR BEST."

-ROBERT HERNANDEZ


                             


 





"OUR DEEPEST FEAR IS NOT THAT WE ARE INADEQUATE
OUR DEEPEST FEAR IS THAT WE ARE POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE
IT IS OUR LIGHT,NOT ARE DARKNESS THAT MOST FRIGHTENS US
WE ASK OURSELVES,WHO AM I TO BE BRILLIANT, GORGEOUS,TALENTED, FABULOUS?
ACTUALLY WHO ARE YOU NOT TO BE?
YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD.
YOUR PLAYING SMALL DOES NOT SERVE THE WORLD.
THERE IS NOTHING ENLIGHTENED ABOUT SHRINKING SO THAT OTHER PEOPLE WON'T FEEL INSECURE AROUND YOU.
WE ARE ALL MEANT TO SHINE, AS CHILDREN DO.
WE WERE BORN TO MAKE MANIFEST THE GLORY OF GOD THAT IS WITHIN US.
ITS NOT JUST IN SOME OF US; IT'S IN EVERYONE.
AND AS WE LET OUR LIGHT SHINE, WE UNCONSCIOUSLY GIVE OTHER PEOPLE PERMISSION TO DO THE SAME.
AS WE ARE ALL LIBERATED FROM OUR OWN FEAR,
OUR PRESENCE AUTOMATICALLY LIBERATES OTHERS."

-NELSON MANDELA

  





          




NELSON MANDELA
A TRUE HERO
JULY 1918-DECEMBER 2013

  




A WARM HEART
A BEAUTIFUL SOUL
A TRAGIC INCIDENT
WHERE WE'VE SEEN YOU GO

A MOMENT IN TIME
WE ALL WISH WE COULD REWIND
BUT WE'RE GRATEFUL FOR THE BEAUTIFUL
MEMORIES YOU'VE LEFT BEHIND.

MAY YOUR LIGHT FOREVER SHINE ON
AND BE OF COMFORT TO YOUR FRIENDS,
FANS AND LOVED ONES

I PRAY PEACE BE WITH YOU ALWAYS
KNOW THAT YOU WERE LOVED AND IN OUR HEARTS
YOUR BEAUTIFUL MEMORY WILL STAY.


REST IN PEACE 
PAUL WILLIAM WALKER
1973-2013

-KESIENA

       


     







CHECK OUT MORE OF THE ARTISTS 
WORK HERE.


DO YOU RECOGNIZE ME?
AM I SMILING?
AM I THE SHADE YOU RECOGNIZE SLOWLY DYING 
SCARRED WITH ABUSE,LIES AND NEGLECT
THREATENED,BULLIED ON THE EDGE OF DEATH

DON'T YOU RECOGNIZE ME?
I SEE THAT DISGUST IN YOUR EYES
I HEAR THE TONE IN YOUR VOICE
THE WONDERING WHY...
HOW,WHY,WHEN DID SHE BECOME
THE WORST VERSION OF HERSELF
A FRIEND OF NONE

IT'S ME CAN'T YOU SEE
I'M THE SAME JUST NOT FREE
I'VE BEEN SUFFERING IN SILENCE
LOOKING FOR A WAY TO FLEE

FLEE FROM MY EMOTIONS
THAT TEAR ME APART
SCAR ME INTERNALLY
TORMENTING MY HEART
TRAPPED WITHIN MYSELF
I HAVE NOWHERE TO GO

SO I SUFFER IN SILENCE
FOREVER ALONE

THE MIND I HEAR
IT'S NOT REALLY MINE
IT'S BEEN INFECTED BY THE POSION THAT SLOWLY GROWS INSIDE...



ME WHO I NEVER WANT TO BE!

-KESIENA










"THE BOOTY DON'T LIE"

           





AND ALL THINGS,WHATSOEVER YE SHALL ASK
IN PRAYER,BELIEVING,YE SHALL RECEIVE.
AMEN





South East London
Photographed by KSI


THERE'S SOMETHING ABOUT WATCHING
THE SUNSET/RISE THAT MAKES ME BELIEVE
EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OK. :-)
SILLY...I KNOW.LOL

-KESIENA


       

                                     
                 

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#WANTI




















"BRAND NEW"






THE 27YR OLD ARTIST CREATES ABSTRACT
ART BY SNORTING PAINT AND SQUIRTING
IT THROUGH HIS EYE.








FRIDA KAHLO
MY FAVOURITE ARTIST OF ALL TIME



















I THOUGHT HE MIGHT BE INJURED.:-(


FLOWER SOUP
















HAPPY BIRTHDAY MJ.
WE MISS YOU.
Xx





HE IS A TESTIMONY TO NEVER GIVE UP
ON YOUR DREAMS!













I HAVE TO GO!
"CONCRETE JUNGLE WHERE DREAMS ARE MADE OF..."



                                                                                                                                                          



《 ON REPEAT 》










































DEAR JUSTIN
THANKYOU FOR RELEASING
SUCH AN AMAZING ALBUM

-KESIENA



#THE2020EXPERIENCE

                                                                                                                                                          






ME AT AGE 1? LOL
I REMEMBER THIS DAY...
IT WAS A GOOD DAY, I HAD MY BEADS ON
AND MY NAPPY WASN'T SOGGY. ;-)

#MEMORYLANE #KSILIFE







                                                                                                                                                         







"SOME KNOW ME FOR THIS, SOME KNOW ME FOR THAT.
REALLY I'M ANOTHER HUMAN BEING LIVING 
OUT A VISION.
#DREAMING THE #I'MPOSSIBLE DREAM."

-OLAMIDE


CAN'T BELIEVE THIS DUDE HASN'T BEEN
SIGNED??? 
HE'S BLOODY AMAZING!!

FORMER MEMBER OF JIVE RECORDING GROUP IMAJIN.
WHO REMEMBERS THEM...?
"CHOCOLATE FLAVOURED CANDY GIIIIIRRRRRLLLL..."♥

HE'S ALSO THE YOUNGER BROTHER OF
DONALD FAISON AKA "TURK" FROM US SITCOM SCRUBS.

WWW.OLAMIDEFAISON.COM

CONNECT WITH HIM

WWW.TWITTER.COM/YoOLAMIDE
WWW.FACEBOOK.COM/YoOLAMIDE
WWW.INSTAGRAM.COM/YoOLAMIDE
WWW.YOUTUBE.COM/YoOLAMIDE












     








MY DISASSOCIATION























PRESENTED WITH SINCERETY
EYES DIRECT
KING OF MANIPULATION
DISHONESTY DEMANDING RESPECT

AIMING TO PLEASE
WITHOUT A SHADOW OF DOUBT
UNAWARE OF THE CONSEQUENCES
THAT WILL LATER PAN OUT

A LIE TO A FRIEND
THE FRIEND WITH A HEART
GENUINE WITH LOVE
HONEST FROM THE START

TO BE CONTINUED...






                                                                                                                                                













ALL 4OUR CORNERS THAT YOUR HIDING
FROM ARE STILL YOU!

YOUR NOT THE SAME,YOUR DIFFERENT
YOU HAVEN'T CHANGED...YOU GOT LOST

FIND YOURSELF AGAIN AND CONTINUE TO EVOLVE
NURTURE YOUR GIFT AND SHARE IT WORLDWIDE

DON'T KEEP YOUR AUDIENCE WAITING
THEY'RE JUST AS EXCITED AS YOU ARE
TO SEE YOU FLY.

-KESIENA


















SOME VERY COOL ILLUSTRATIONS
BY BRAZILIAN ARTIST
FERNANDO VOLKEN TOGNI












                                                                                                                                                               






SOME BEAUTIFUL PRINTS ON
WOOD BY NEW YORK ARTIST
AJA APA-SOURA.

YOU CAN FIND MORE OF HER WORK HERE:

www.sagittariusgallery.com
www.sagittariusgallery.blogspot.com
www.sagittariusgallery.deviantart.com
www.sagittariusgallery.etsy.com









              





CHOREOGRAPHY: BY SEAN BANKHEAD
DANCERS: THE BGC

#WATCH



















SOME VERY COOL ILLUSTRATIONS  BY FRENCH
GRAFFITI ARTIST 

-BLO

SEE MORE OF HIS WORK HERE:





















I AM WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR AND EVERYTHING I'VE LOST
I AM EVERYTHING I NEED AND MORE OF WHAT I WANT
I AM SOMETHING I'VE BEEN SEARCHING FOR AND WHAT I NEED TO FIND
I AM WHO GOD SAYS I AM!

EMBEDDED DEEP INSIDE OF ME IS GOD GIVEN POWER
HE HAS GIVEN ME THE KNOWLEDGE TO FIND IT AND WISDOM TO USE IT
ALL I HAVE TO DO IS DIG DEEP AND IGNITE IT

BUT THE FEAR OF GREATNESS IS WHAT IS FIGHTING IT
THE FIRE IS BURNING BUT I CANNOT LIGHT I?

FEAR THE ILLUSION DEAMON,A NON EXISTENT DISASSOCIATE
AN ILLUSIONIST THAT CAN MAKE ITS PRESENCE KNOWN AND ILLUSION FELT
A TRICKSTER OF THE MIND,A CLOGGER OF THE SOUL
THE OBSTRUCTION OF ALL MY PAST AND CURRENT DOINGS...

ANXIETY A DISTORTED FEAR,
THE RELATIVE TO OTHERS...WHO OBSTRUCT AND DESTROY!
THE WEB THAT HAS ENTANGLED ME IS NO MORE
NO #BPD
I AM WELL IN JESUS NAME

 AMEN

-KESIENA















#PrayForNelsonMandela

AN AMAZING INTERPRETATION OF
 NELSON MANDELA
 BY THE FRENCH GRAPHIC DESIGNER
AND ILLUSTRATOR

-YOAZ

Click The Links Below For More Of His Work

    








A LITTLE ONE SHALL BECOME A THOUSAND,
AND A SMALL ONE A STRONG NATION:
I THE LORD WILL HASTEN IT IN HIS TIME.
AMEN







SOME AMAZING FASHION ILLUSTRATIONS
FROM VARIOUS DESIGNERS FROM THE VOGUE PARIS WEBSITE.



                                                        


















PTSD
I have no idea who this image is by. :(